Hero's Heart Day 2021 was...

 ...heartbreaking. It was just too cruel. There was this quest. Aspenvale Academy. The style of the quest was more along the lines of a dating sim game, but with DF characters instead. And it had Tomix in it. So when they said to pick someone to focus on and go on a QuestVenture with, of course, I zeroed in on Tomix. So I'm picking all the options that would raise the relationship with him. And then it starts glitching. In a pre-programmed way. So, I start getting curious. And then the first part ends. So I have to wait a week for the second one. And I played that... Yesterday. Yes, it was yesterday. So I read through it till the end. And when they tell me to pick a partner, I pick Tomix. And what do I get instead of anything else? I get a scene of the Hero visiting Tomix's grave. Because Tomix is dead. 

And yet, his soul is still missing. So where the hell is he? I'm still believing the theory that he occupies the body of his brother who lost his soul. At this point, the theory is unlikely, but hey, I'm not giving up on it. I have to believe it. Tomix is the best character out of all of them! 

So yeah, this year's Hero's Heart Day was heartbreaking. At least for me. What they did to Tomix was not cool and I'm still not over it. And I don't plan on getting over it. Not unless they bring him back. I know I wrote a ranting post about his death almost right after I finished the Void ship saga. For the record, I no longer ship Tomix and Warlic in the romantic sense of the word. But I do enjoy fluff between those two. Gimme fluff. I'm probably gonna have to go and re-read the one sole fic that has some serious fluff between Warlic and Tomix that exists. Seriously, DF is such a well of possible fanfiction ideas, and yet... There's not that much unless you count all the stories with a female Hero paired with one of the NPCs. And that is not something I like. 

Really! It's not fair! It's always my favorite character that has to bite the dust! I hate this! What am I doing wrong? Am I picking the wrong favorites? At least The Untamed had a happy ending. Even if they didn't kiss... (In the drama).

Done. I'm done. I just needed to scream a little about this. 

See you later.

~AnnElfwind

Written on the 21st of February, 2021

When death strikes

Hi,

my grandmother died today. She had cancer and was in a bad shape for several months now. And today was just the day when she died. I last saw her on Saturday. So only like two days ago, so that's good, that she saw me and I her before it happened. The suprising think is, I'm not really feeling anything... Sadness, or anything. I just feel normal... Does that mean that I'm cold blodded  and uncaring, or does that mean that my relationship with her was not as good as I thought? To be honest, I think that it's the first option...

Frankly, I alway was kinda detatched... From reality I mean. Whenever something happened in the real life, I didn't even so much as flinch, however, if my favourite character in a book, game, movie died, I'd cry... Is it wrong? Probably... But there is nothing I can do about it. I just don't know how to be a loving caring person... 

Well... At least the death was quick and peaceful. At least, that's what my mom said. From what she told me, she was there. Even though I'm not sure she was there for the exact moment. I myslef wouldn't have been able to be there as I was in school working my brain with math and programing... Oh well... You know how it goes. Remember the good about the dead and let the life go on... 

See ya.